tryin to gain control over myself

dunno wads wrong

is like so obvious i need help....

to break a bad habit of mind...

cant he c it....wth....

i have to take control nw

is like everything has always been in my hands all this while..since secondary skl...

is like u were e one who told me to handle my life since young...

n nw i ask for help...

u refuse to give it to me...

u were e one who place e control in my hands..

n nw u realised tt i have grown up without u realisin it...

cant u c it....

u cant have e control back...i will nv give it back...i on my own nw

its always have been..silly...

i will find a way on my own..as always no way i will come to u for help anymore...tt's it my final decision

Shopping

i was shopping with mich and alfred today...

shopping for new year clothings...so happy got something

so nice to be out after so long...

really need air to breathe lah..

i found out todae that alfred is such a nice person...make a new fren todae...

mich also kept suaning both of us...

but aniwae i think we all enjoyed our day out...

shod do this more often....

but if there is time lah...

sick

i was made to stay at home kept sleeping e whole dae.... in e morning, i was abt to step out of e house... was stopped by my dad... refused to let me out of the house... anyway...one day at home todae

upon losing my voice

i think i have just lost my voice... its like when my ma tried to scold me... i dun have energy to quarrel back dun feel like toking.. we r goin to have a very quiet minty... peace n quiet...

sick

i think i have overwork myself.... come on....two science competition in a row... lots of datelines...for reports n so many teachers breathin down my neck... haha this week, i was late for skl for e 1st time in my entire life... i panicked n cried... then slammed my finger on e door... got injured n horribly swollen... almost every teacher knew... n so many pple knew... now...i'm sick... someone pls help me... got some more tests next week... i hate spa... but situation is getting better nw though there is so much stress... i still love skl>.<

some days r just like that

sometimes i wonder wat would be like to be just free of emotions....

it is so easy to get sad...

like the first day of skl...

e first day of class...

e first dae when u first noe tt special someone...

e first dae when u become firm friends....

The dae u realised something....tt somethings r impossible to achieve...

from 1st dae...comes e following

the bonds u make with ur frens...

the feelings n emotions u get

e experience u get...of feelings of special frens n people

Then comes the end....

the dae when we have our final year exams....

e support u have for each other....

n then....

comes graduation night...

where everyone separates to go on their own life journies...

but then u wod noe that they are still part of ur life's story...

n through this story u find even more things u wod treasure, regrets..

life it is a amazing journey one can find....

First day of skl

Nervous, dunno wat to expect..... Beginning a new day as a J2.. quite nice be seniors of e skl..... but frightening too.... class started..lessons as usual somethings i dun understand... y cant some people be nice to others? i hate it.... y m i so nice to people when no one appreciates me....

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