approaching to the end of 2004

Reflecting upon this year, i have found out that i have changed somehow but how much..... curbing fears isnt really very easy, everydae its a new challenge to curb that fear in me.... somethings r so difficult to put in words...but actions say it all.... i know i shodnt think too much.........but i wanna noe more...

Christmas eve

sometimes, i dun realli like christmas....

It makes me feel so lonely...its like everyone is in pairs or in their group of frens...

Even though i have my own group...the emptiness is still there...

Tt's y i always leave my group.....on tt dae...

it's like e feeling of being alone is so beautiful, but yet sad also

alone u feel urself..when everyone is busy with themselves...

u will noe urself better....but at the same time sinking into this deep hole of saddness that u can never escape at all....

Christmas...wishing u have someone special with u.... but again....christmas n a new year....

leads to a new beginning, a new start N also a new END to end with....