mint and sweets

2011-03-30T05:15:00.000-07:00

I cant let u have my heart for you dont feel the same as i do. Thus, i have to walk away or even run away now. I chose to abandon on what i feel and leave that part behind. No regrets as it was never right in the first place.

the bridge between us

2010-03-27T06:39:00.000-07:00

I just want to say: I want to know you better, would you let me?

Christmas eve

2009-12-23T16:46:00.000-08:00

On this day last year, i spend this day with you. One year forward, we have gone on our separate ways. As the end of the year approaches, reflection on past mistakes,achievements and choices seem to have mature me alittle, just alittle. I dont regret choosing this path, lets just look forward to the future and see what it holds for us. P.S: Have a happy christmas eve, sorry that i cant be home on this day.

An enchanted meeting

2009-11-07T08:15:00.000-08:00

Have u ever felt enchanted with someone the first time u met them? I look forward for each chance to meet u again.

Just feeling neglected.

2009-07-17T06:44:00.000-07:00

OMG.where the hell are you? Cant u spare me 5 minutes of your time!!!! *Just felt like screaming into somewhere.

understanding

2009-04-21T03:34:00.000-07:00

I should understand the situation but can i be selfish just for once? Its not much i ask for.

blogging thoughts

2009-04-07T03:14:00.000-07:00

hmmm. i think living as a single organism was ok. but now trying to live as 2 organisms, its so difficult.oh well.

Honours 2009

2009-04-01T04:45:00.000-07:00

OMG!!! Presentation starts tomorrow and its only 20mins. 10mins talking 5 mins Q&A!!! So freaking scary. Honours assessment here WE COME!!!! Damn it, if only you were here. Hahas. miss u, <3 u.

Thoughts

2009-03-23T00:25:00.000-07:00

Sitting in the post graduate room in the library and watching the sunset as i do my work. The time just ticks by and quietness envelops me. Under the same sky but in two different places with a 2 hours time difference. I still miss your warmth dearly.

thoughts

2009-03-14T03:35:00.000-07:00

I really miss you so much.Homesick~

a new beginning for 2009

2009-02-28T19:15:00.000-08:00

Finally after 8 months, i can say im happy for now. Honours is here. Just have to pull through this 9 months. Cant wait to be home!

what am i to you?

2009-01-03T06:39:00.000-08:00

Sometimes,i just dont understand. What am i to you? You show me affections but push me away at the same time. I am confused by you, but we left so little time together. am i yours or are u mine?

a new year

2009-01-01T17:20:00.001-08:00

A new year has finally come.This means all my greatest fears and challenges will come true. To all my friends in spore, i am really not going back this year. Anyway Happy new year everyone.

fustrations and venting

2008-11-13T06:55:00.000-08:00

I just need to get this out of my chest. Hate You!!!!!!!! Damn it. Its just so hard when im still so fond of you. Urgh!

emoness

2008-11-08T01:00:00.001-08:00

Facing a junction, separation seems near. Different paths everyone is getting onto. I think we will meet again somewhere in the future. I am sure.

my thoughts

2008-11-06T00:45:00.000-08:00

I....dont want to go but there seems to be no place for me. Should i linger on further, but separation just seems so hard.

sugar and spice

2008-11-02T01:19:00.000-07:00

Love is just like sugar and spice, bittersweet. For those who are recovering from a heartbreak, its really good. I really need to recover my smile back.

haizzz

2008-09-29T05:17:00.001-07:00

I think i have just created a mess. Have to find a solution to it.

exam time

2008-05-24T19:49:00.000-07:00

Its been ages since i blog since there is nothing interesting in my life.oh well. i guess no one reads it anyway.Its already third year of my undergraduate study. I guess people do reallly grow after 3 years, all the hopes and inspirations.I am also turning 21 this year. Time to step into young adulthood, comes with responsibilities and society obligations. here are some recent photos taken this year: The four girls in Three Monkeys.

announcements

2007-12-13T06:45:00.001-08:00

home.im home~.

updates

2007-11-10T07:57:00.000-08:00

oh man..my blog is growing cobwebs.It has been eons since i updated it.oh well.Here it goes:

12 oct: my 20th birthday.Nothing really much.just went to see movies and had dinner with frens, in which i ended up having flu for a week.

6th-16th nov: EXAM period..study study until all hell break loose. Its so tiring. I really look like a panda with eyebags.

P.s: By the way people, im not going home this year.Yups. You heard me, not going home this year.That means you would get to see me in 2 yrs after honours? hmm...

recent photo:

Graduation time jul 2007

2007-07-19T04:34:00.000-07:00

hahas..LOLs..its not me graduating, its all my other friends graduating..oh well.motivation everytime i see masters, Phd, and first class honours students going up to get their certs.Fantastic.inspiration for me to carry on.anyway,here are the photos.

italian festival

2007-07-01T09:42:00.000-07:00

I went to italian festival today.Results of the day: lots of pasta,food and wine,ice creams and pretty masks to see.Not to forget:gladiator shows, grape stomping activites and of cos the highlight of the day is...SHAN MIN getting drunk over one glass of white wine..*faints*..seriously who gets drunk over one glass of wine..damn funny la..and some old italian uncles came to talk to us over italian heritage..so interesting..oh well, here is one photo taken at the festival.

minty is lonely

2007-06-28T08:16:00.000-07:00

Little minty is finally going nuts again without anything to do.When there is no holidays and just uni, she is busily keeping her mind occupied on school work.Holidays are a nightmare to her when there is nothing to do, she goes on a excessive rampage of thinking nonsense and worrying too much.CRAZY oredi la..i want uni to start quickly.

ice skating

2007-06-26T05:26:00.000-07:00

i just came home from ice skating..so damn refreshing...for the record,3 falls..one nasty bruise on my left knee and so much FUN!!!so happy..hahas..There are so many good skaters around..hais..and there are two cute guys, super pro and so suai when they are ice skating..when the music comes on, and the room darkens with flickering lights, is just like magic..dance on the ice..too bad, i dont have a partner..AHAHAHAs

time for job hunting

2007-06-24T23:58:00.000-07:00

Holidays are here...urgh,,the boredom...i hate HOLIDAYS..nothing to do la..its like shop or watch tv? thats why im finding a job..hope i can get one after handing out so many resumes today.

Exam is over...AHAHAHA

2007-06-19T08:58:00.000-07:00

exam is finally over..phew..its soFREAKING stressful...urgh..man..make me think so much la...oh well...And its FREAKING cold...windy windy days.. Oh well..sometimes i think too much when im alone..hahas..1.5 yrs of independence?LOLS...i feel that sometimes a person strong exterior is just for show, its to cover up how weak they feel..defense mechanism..i think although i have grown stronger, i have also grown weaker..its like philosophy..the good and the bad..yin and yang.. weakness and strongness..hahaas..wad a complement seriously..oh man..still got 2.5 yrs to go..when mi gg to return home fully? I dun have the answer yet..still finding myself..i shall go on a journey next yr..lols..

exam time

2007-06-01T05:55:00.000-07:00

oooo..its exam time meaning SEMESTER one 2007 is going to be over..WOOhooo...hahahs.this means i have to work so hard for this exam...MAN..YEAR 2 sux big time...so many assignments..so little time and SO much to study...oh well.. Hear this little minty complain..but alls good..this means i am closer to graduation...haahas... So exciting though, its the boys gg to Uni soon..hehe..their time has come. P.S: i not sure whether i coming home in dec..i shall decide later..

Easter break

2007-04-11T07:13:00.000-07:00

Here we are again with the one week easter break.This time it is filled with more and more assignments with 2 exams coming up.And of cos, DANA's birthday and my Xiao Di birthday.heehee.cant wait.Xiao di finally turning 18, can go clubbing already.Today, a waiter looks like a certain someone, made me keep glancing at the waiter.i think the waiter must thought i was nuts.oh well.I still remember my 17-18 year old self very well.Sometimes i wish time had stopped or i had done more things within those 2 years. Its already the 2nd year away from jc, each year we grow but memories just seem so fresh in my mind.Everytime someone's birthday is nearby, makes me think about past experiences at that age.

Here are some photos taken few weeks ago:all my act cute photos,pls donot vomit blood.Thanx.

closing doors

2007-03-24T01:40:00.000-07:00

I am alrite now i guess.Learnt something new each day.Learnt that when i close one door, another door will open.I am feel that everything that happens around me has a reason, in which i will treasure things properly.Having regrets wont take me any where, so i shall let life take me through, to make decisions without regrets.

i will stand and not fall

2007-03-19T05:31:00.001-07:00

stand little minty..i shall not fall to the ground..stress..so many practical report..and the surrounding around me..

gentleness brings the most harm

2007-03-16T17:25:00.000-07:00

i found out that when a person is gentle with you, the hurt is deeper.so weird huh, but interesting too. i shall now let go and just carry on with life.minty back to normal in one week.I had done alot of thinking and these are some phrases i had come up with. 太温柔的人带给的伤害最多。如果不喜欢她，就不要给她错感觉。因为你的温柔让她心动。没有能力牵着她的手，就不要牵她的手。还有，要把你的事情讲清楚，因为会带给她伤痛。最重要的事是她已经放手了。李家玉字。

me

2007-03-15T14:56:00.000-07:00

镜子中的我。感情的事原来是那么复杂。我也该告一段落。家里的，这里的。

2007 photos

2007-01-25T09:09:00.000-08:00

More brisbane photos-University of queensland

2007-01-25T08:40:00.000-08:00

Brisbane night

2007-01-25T08:34:00.000-08:00

Brisbane photos

2007-01-25T08:22:00.000-08:00

Photos of me and sis in brisbane 2006-end

silly minty

2007-01-25T07:14:00.000-08:00

As silly as i am, it seems somethings are just so hard to get over with.oh well..I am leaving singapore for australia in one months time.One month, is so little time.Nothing much u can do about it but make good use of it.I would be away from family and an independent gal again.But this time, maoy is going to be alone for the first time too.So exciting.hahahas.So little time but so much to do.Another step forward to take i guess. V-day is coming..hahahs.Time to have another singles party.

home

2006-11-20T23:30:00.000-08:00

I wan to go home but i have to wait for sis to come to brisbane.Its been such a long time since i blog since i was so busy and nothing much to complain about. Its holiday time after a hectic one year of UNI.. Now waiting for results to come back before i choose subjects for year 2..woo hoo..YEAR 2 student..omg..time pass really fast eh..i dunwan to step into 20..hahahs..19 is already bad enough..ok..growing old.hmmm..for now, i m bored thats why im blogging.Normally i cant be bothered at all..

stress

2006-08-22T01:36:00.000-07:00

I think little minty is abit stress these days..Semester 2 is alot heavier than Semester one, people please dont think that because its uni in aust therefore is slack..You are so damn wrong..I am so busy these days..coming home at around 5pm everyday..oh well..leave me alone for awhile and stop askin me to find jobs now..because really there is no time when mid sem exam coming up and end yr exam coming up..since fees are so expensieve, i rather concentrate on studying to get my distinctions..i wan my 7s..I dont mind working during hols but seriously in the middle of sem..no way..ahhh..stress..i cant see y ppl expect me to do so much things at one go..further more i am new here..stop pushin me so hard..hais..its like suddenly being thrown into a mess..ahhhhhhhhh stress.. ok..minty signing off..just wanted to complain..hahahas..

gloomy minty

2006-07-29T07:42:00.000-07:00

minty gloomy these days, not very sure of the reason..probably too long away from home.i do have friends but sometimes i feel very empty, as if one part of me is not around.. hahahas..so gloomy..oh well. semester starts this week..i need something to distract my mind which is studying..yeah so happy to be back in school..hahahs.. sometimes i wish i knew somethings..but i really want to know, but dont know how to ask it out..

one more week left

2006-07-15T21:45:00.000-07:00

Uni is starting in a week..so exciting, can see everyone again...yeah oh well, hols is so boring although went out for a few days, beside staying at home and work and goin out with frens, nothing realli much happened..and my fren is graduating soon..sobs will miss her so much..going to my first graduation ceremony in uni, so exciting.oh well..i hope the new semester wod be fun too..cant wait to get home at the end of the year...yaya..abit homesick...hahhas..miss my sis alot..lols..oh well..thats it for now...>.<

its time

2006-06-26T03:43:00.000-07:00

Finally i said out the things kept in my heart for 2 years..finally had the courage..at least the burdens of the heart has been put down although i noe tt nothing will come out of it.. exams is over..and i m partying like crazy..hahas.those who are worried abt me in spore..im fine...u wodnt wanna noe wad i have been doing after exams...so fun.. nw looking forward to work and semester 2 to start.. let the time pass more quickly so that i can go back to spore to my frens and family..

idealism or realism

2006-04-22T04:37:00.000-07:00

sometimes gg away for awhile is good..takin a break frm everything...but nw i feel so slack...actually more like emptiness...i dun realli noe wad m i lookin for..probably down e journey of life, i hope i can find it...the transition is so weird..i mean from teenage years to young adults...it sets you thinking alot...even in a few years time, you would be given a right to vote...major decisions in life have to be made..t just feels funny...realli funny...transitions blues.to live in a real world or ideal world...hahas...time wont stop for anyone though..

long easter break

2006-04-12T23:33:00.000-07:00

easter is coming together with a long break...dunno wad shod i do...of cos i have to wrap up my studyin for biology subjects...read abit more chem..round up my chem cmts...dunwan to keep doin so much thermodynamic tests.....hahas...phy midterm finish todae...so happy...maybe i shall run about e city more...explore here and there more...but more or less i got used to the city oredi...i wod be fine...maybe more tv too...sian

2006-04-11T05:34:00.000-07:00

easter is coming...one week break...yeah mid terms is comin to a end and my broadband is up...yups..its up i solved it myself...hais...its in my name..so i had to call them up... aniwae...happy easter everyone

mid term exam in 3 weeks time

2006-03-20T02:56:00.000-08:00

can u believe it?mid term exams in coming in 3 weeks time lor...so lost nw.hais must study study study.hahhas.i made realli good frens with my lab partners oredi...so happy... aniwae, i m so looking forward to my squash lessons on this sat...so happy..actually shoppin here is realli good..but then no money..student ma...must save save save...hahas.spend alot of money on skl stuff..oh ya..my lessons on animal biology is realli cool...we get to have out own dissection kit...hahas..this fridae...fertilising urchin's ova, playin with blood...and of cos...lookin at alive bull's sperm through mircoscope..hahas..lol..people readin my blog..pls leave alot of comments to keep me updated..thans so much.

a cold.

2006-03-13T04:52:00.000-08:00

its realli nt good to fall sick when u r studyin ovseas.im like catchin a cold here n there.its the 3rd week of skl.everything has finalised n calm down.todae was my 1st bio prac.so professional, we have toget our own labcoats.oh well...luv being in the lab.ppl here luvs to party although me myself have nt tried gg to one yet.weather is realli horrendous.cold n hot.day hot, nite cold.realli sick.oh well...nthg much gg on aniwae.ciaos....

a undergrad

2006-03-05T06:27:00.000-08:00

its a long time since i blog.nw in aust uni studying sci major in biomedical sci.classes just begin.i didnt noe i m so adaptable.so scary.its realli ex studying there.almost 3000 a subject.yes.ppl.i m taking 4 sub.so u noe wad i mean.ppl say i gote s'pore accent hahas.hais.e guys here nt suai wan.i can forget gettin a bf liao le. oh ya.results was out on wed.i got aaac.scare me lor.but happy la ok.tts all.nthg much.gg to sleep nw.lect at 9am. nites ppl. Ps:its realli boring, n i m fine here.so dun worry.

Soon to be gone from S'pore

2006-02-06T09:20:00.000-08:00

Its been ages since i blog...onto CNY, nothing much happen except playing mahjong, and more angpows.. Anyway, i gg to queensland university soon..there is so much feelings involved in it. It may be a good start to new found independence and freedom..its also would bring fresh feelings for me..for once i want to forget some things..although it would be deeply etched in my mind..dunno y lar..but i still hurting frm some unknown reasons.. On my work: I would be quiting soon...wod miss working though..it was quite fun as it taught me alot of stuff..wod miss my colleagues..working let me breathe for once in e rush for e preparation for uni.. Frens:oh well,i miss them alot..e gurls n e guys..i may still be able to catch e gurls..but e guys r in NS..wad to do..i miss them so much..wonder if they have thin down alot.. I owe alot of ppl to go out with them..hahas..they kept saying they wan to treat me to a meal i wod grow fat by e way if tt happens.. I hope maybe i wod change much when i m ovseas..onli change is a constant..who noes when i m back frm s;pore aft my studies..life wod bring new challenges n beginnings again

2006-01-11T21:17:00.000-08:00

after so long then i decided to blog..lazy la me..nthg realli happen recently except prom nite n christmas.. On to prom first..it was pretty fun n hectic to put on clothes n makeup..it made me alittle stress though.on tt dae, i could see everyone on different light..boys becoming men n gurls as young women stepping out into their new life.My class gurls were very pretty in their dresses, but our class boys alittle underdress..they shod have came in suits..overall it was pretty nice. i went around clicking my camera away..didnt realli eat much though..hahas.the most touching scene was when e teachers left little messages for their students..at tt point i realli felt like crying..tt nite ended with e band n ppl dancing..i just sat there taking in e atmosphere with thots just running thru my head on wad happen i this two years..did i realli grow as a person?i think i nt so sure yet but maybe time wod tell..oh well..prom marks e ending of our skl life in Jurong jc. christmas: it was enjoyable.the boys came back frm NS. they told us abt their exciting stories there, esp they have no more hair.hahas..the setting was in a restaurant which was organized my mich..to me i think it was great to have a class gathering..although some people who didnt come made such a dissapointment..oh well..wad to expect frm them..they nv considered themselves as part of e class..even leonard came lor n they didnt come..hais..when i left they were drinking red wine n i had to leave...no choice mah.. ok...next on 2006...i m like waiting for this uni to respond me..made me wait n wait..getting realli nervous n paranoid.. i went ard job hunting..finally found a job...quite fun la..learn alot of bread n more bread.. nthg much realli nw..just yesterdae went to crash e cca open hse..someone gave me quite a big surprise..somemore on the corridor of e skl la...saw alot of juniors made me so happy..skl is realli a fun place to be...skl sick sia..but ok la..everyone have to move on...alittle much stronger nw comapre to when i was sixteen.. e missing of skl is there...but shodnt brood over it too much..

5 Days to e countdown

2005-11-19T03:04:00.000-08:00

A level is finishing soon...we bio students r still stuck with 2 more paper...so unfair... y start with bio n finish with bio.. i so wanna put down everything soon... hais...oh well..yesterdae was marks e end of Jc life for some ppl... n soon it will mark e end for me too... so many things happen..within 2 years.. dunno whether i have grown much..i hope some ppl did.. sad...somethings just has to come to end... i hope before i leave jc...i will leave with things to cherish abt..frens n memories of e place chalet is coming soon...cant wait for it...bio pls end soon

hais

2005-09-24T08:18:00.000-07:00

me n my carelessness....everytime like tt

oh well...prelims is over...n 3 weeks more to my birthdae

yeah.....gonna be 18 soon finally...

i wanna alot of things for my birthdae though..hahas

wait....first on my prelims...

i was pretty calm...but i have a realli bad habit..

never read through carefully my qns..

never check through it carefully

everything boils down to one word: carelessness

oh well...maybe abit of complacency

hais....minty have to learn it hard nw

ok...next...birthdae is coming...12 oct

hope people will remember it...

haha...alevels mah...

everyone studying...sob sob...

haix...shod nt expect too much...

birthdae wish list...i also dunno wad i realli want...

haix...oh well..gonna grow old liao..

i still look like 14 though..hahas

dissapointment in myself

2005-08-27T08:25:00.000-07:00

hais....prelims is coming n my head goes into a total black out for mock exams i m like so freak out...m i hiding my trueself...i feel so fake... tryin to hide this stupid fear... i think its coming back... so confused... little minty needs some pyschoing...

the countdown to prelims

2005-08-23T06:34:00.000-07:00

Prelims is finally here......in less than 20 weeks time.. everyone is studyin alot...including me... i tryin to prevent a breakdown.... hahas....i can depend on alot of my frens though... Gp is broadening my mind alot...theories and philosophy... tryin to apply to myself...control of my mind.... i got realli little time to blog these daes...getting too tired also after a levels...i gonna give myself a good thought on how clear up my life...

hmmmm...food for thots

2005-08-02T06:41:00.000-07:00

it seems like i have one month left...oh my...its so fast... things keep popin out of e blue... i realli wanted something badly..but couldnt get it...oh bother.. time pass...everyone is getting used to my act cute syndrome.. haha..i threaten them..one of these days i wod clone myself..n everyone wod have an overdosage of act cuteness..

back to my com

2005-07-25T06:10:00.000-07:00

as many seem to keep buggin me for my blog...sorri ah...this was due to some minor problems with my com.. my com was infected with some virus...n couldnt have it back for 2 weeks...it for reformated.. ok...updates on my life nw... i have develop a new maths syndrome...keep doin maths,... my mind seem to be overloaded with too much stuff... i cant seem to focus on chem... physics i luv it alot.. whereas bio...i keep misplacin my books haha...my life is in a mess...due to some unfortunate events...something also turn upside down... but i shallnt elaborate on it..

maths

2005-07-09T01:24:00.000-07:00

my life is nt suppose be onli filled with maths..n all i go home n do these daes is onli maths n more maths Ahhhhhhh....crazy oredi liao...enuf of maths..

2005-07-05T07:49:00.000-07:00

todae i had tennis n squash......so happy destress myself...but then i play until my ears hurt... then they chase me up so tt i can rest... mr leow gave us alot of maths cant finish liao

oh well

2005-06-30T06:18:00.000-07:00

due to high demands, i have decided to blog todae...i cant understand ppl realli...esp boys... i have grew up in a surrounding where it is all gurls.. i hate ppl who keep things frm me esp when something is goin on...somemore ppl who r close to u... cant stand it..i m being ignored by one of my good guy frens...y cant he just give me a straight stupid ans... argh....shall nt bother him animore...so irritating nt hangin ard e squash court often nw...must study... onli reason to go when mao is ard..hardly see her in skl...hais..alevels.. oh ya...made a new fren too...mao's good fren..hahas

time to have a mugger life

2005-06-29T06:35:00.000-07:00

i havent been blogging much due to my hectic life...mid years has just finished..n 10 more weeks is prelims oh well, i think my standard is back to normal...after all e mess i have created, everything just seem so peaceful now...its good i think..ok..tt's all for nw..so lazy to blog these daes.

hols...

2005-06-14T07:32:00.000-07:00

hmm....i have been mugging lately and my concentration level is improving...must mediate everydae to achieve it

my thots though still flyin everywhere...but i dun think of certain things animore..hahax

busy with skl work...watchin anime n movies..tryin to keep myself busy...

but a sense of loneliness seem to be surrounding me...everyone is growin up so fast...hahas..

i m still stuck in my own little world..

oh well..holidaes

2005-06-01T06:38:00.000-07:00

man...i hate holidaes.. it gives me holidaes blues n i wod be skl sick... cant stay at home..wod be nagged at i think i have recovered frm all my trauma tt happen last month.. rollercoaster ride... i wish e daes dun pass to quickly... its like when one dae pass is one dae closer to a's i so so scared very scared wish i had someone to cling onto.... but everyone have their own problems to attend to.. oh wait...ppl my tagboard is down right at e bottom of e page.. pls tag...lonely gal here..

stress

2005-05-17T07:19:00.000-07:00

i m feelin kinda stress lately.. horrible feeling.. i just dunwanna study.. i keep comin home n just sleep n sleep my appetitie getting worse.. i can just skip dinner everyday..n dun eat in skl.. so sick of eating liao.. oh no..wads happening.. two words: school stress

the road to recovery

2005-05-15T00:23:00.000-07:00

i think i m up n going oredi.. no use thinking so much... but i maybe still alittle off... so ppl pls bear with me.. little minty wod be back wait for her to appear again..

hmm...pain

2005-05-14T07:41:00.000-07:00

ever had ur heart broken twice...well it hurts so badly.. y history always repeat twice..on the same time of the year.. wonder how long to get over it.. oh well...one year of...

end of the week

2005-05-13T08:49:00.000-07:00

this week has many events happening...to the volley ball gurls winning their match.. to me thinking too much of a situation sometimes i wish i could be my ownself again.. i have changed much i think.. saw my ex-teacher todae in skl...hahaha wonder wad he was doin there aniwae...he also said i have changed much.. with a level looming near, the increase of tests has become some sort of interesting.. i have gotten through one psychological barrier.. next is my other barrier of my fear... i mean to me...in a gurls skl for so long.. my studies always have been my precious... i mean in a gurls skl...all i had was my work.. i tried so hard to get away frm something.. but i have found e courage to face it i think.. hmm...around this time of year.. make me thot of last year..this period of time shant go into details though.. i still can remember every situation in e class so vividly.. hmm...mao is bringing me for a haircut tmr.. so happy..sis is also following... haix...so sorri to trouble mao so much.. lets see next week's progress bah..till then..i have to mug

story

2005-05-07T09:59:00.000-07:00

i have gotten inspired by mao to start writing stories.. hmm...is u wanna check it out the website is herehttp://mintthots.blogspot.com/ feel free to give comments.. but then i feel rather stupid writing them..

it time for me to move on nw..

2005-04-26T08:07:00.000-07:00

i think i have to move oredi..

i have been so stagnant for too long...

so mint, u must move...

judgin from today..

he is drifting frm me oredi..

he seem so far away..

n me just tryin to run aft him..

probably in the process i left myself some where..

i got to go back n pick me up...

i keep running..

my way of avoidance frm reality..

i run frm myself, studies, my frens

in e process...e pain is still building up frm there..

just waitin for me to explode..

run along nw..

2005-04-22T06:37:00.000-07:00

its seems this days, i cant seem to sit down to long to study...

maximum time for studyin=20 minutes...

i do cram alot in 20 min...

my brain in its fastest speed..

after that...i slack..

like on thursday

i got so distracted..luv runnin around..

from e squash courts to e soccer game..

last soccer game of jj this year...

tmr...got gp..

its fun..but i always fall asleep..

next week..off to see the psychologist..

must go n find out e root of all problems..

cant be cryin in a levels rite..

yawn...kept playin squash with e j1s..

they r so sweet...nice ppl..

even though i play horribly..they still r patient with me..

aniwae..made good frens there though

so happy>.<

didnt noe someone can be so hardworking..

like it when tt one is serious mode..

rather pissed at kw..n ck, bleah..cant be bothered with them..

rather sacrifice my movies..

Guilty

2005-04-09T09:05:00.000-07:00

i m feelin so guilty.. i shodnt had said something.. didnt control my mouth.. somebody save me.. guilt is eatin me inside how... tis my fault.. i have to bear e consequences nw..

minty

2005-04-04T06:06:00.000-07:00

minty is just so me...

i luv skl badly

veri sian..though

the skl is nonsense

make us register online p.e timings

so stupid...

ok..enuf of that...

life has been hectic for awhile..

greatful tt its peaceful nw..

aniwae...i gonna learn tennis...still luv squash

i gonna be like mao..hook on it..

e gurls are tryin to teach me..

but i not so sporty..abit dissapointed with myself

i wonder wad he wod think if he sees me tryin to catch e ball...

n i dunno how to serve...always out of court..

hmmm....nationals are here..

mao is going to get really busy

moosy too...

i gonna get realli lonely..

but realli i hope she wins something..

good luck to moosy n mao...

so happy these few daes...

A little part of me

2005-03-21T08:11:00.000-08:00

i always wish tt i will leave a part of me behind whenever i leave a place..

i hope i can leave something behind...

i wanna be remembered...nt for my name..

but remembered for who i m...

but part of me also got other people too

many have come into my life..n left me too

meeting n separation is part n parcel of life...

who will i be at the end of this year...

n where i go in the next stage of life...

still i just wanna have something that i can cherish..

Foreign

2005-03-15T06:11:00.000-08:00

i dunno much abt u...

n duh....i wunnoe when u be sick...

but i can only be there when u need me...

but still i m just grasping for air myself...

SSEF 2005

2005-03-11T07:07:00.000-08:00

Singapore Science Engineering Fair 2005 a pretty good experience, makin new frens seein new projects of high quality and also gain exposure and experience but still i lose out in some ends like nt studyin for physics test, missin out on lessons i still love my science a lot...passion is there but wad made me feel so unmotivated abt it..its the project i do i feel it is of so low quality n i sacrifice a lot for it y cant i do science n pursue another area... i feel so bored with just science and science pretty boring...i noe i also luv arts but nt good in writing them...

LOVE FIESTA 2005

2005-02-19T05:21:00.000-08:00

Standing in the crowd watching the band perform.... is like the lyrics says: "Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you You are my only one" my hearts feels that way sometimes...is like i'm just waiting n waiting.. let it go.... let it go...

Ntu Jc challenge- the finale:18th feb 2005

2005-02-19T05:13:00.000-08:00

Finally, ntu jc challenge is over....

Here are the results....we lost to Nj by a small margin....

As Professor has say, we cant please everyone...pretty true..

Reflections of the challenge...

the process is more important than e results, i feel we have bonded together alot...as a team

the amount of work we had done n e faith in each other pulled us through...

what is also important is also complete trust in each other...

sometimes ideally is wat u want...but in reality is nt..n we have to be flexible n compromise..

teachers n prof really helped us alot...but the greatese credit still go to mr ladfield who have supported us greatly...

oh really...i miss the old days of stayin in skl til late nites...havin meals together...

n the up n downs we have been thorugh...

throughly...it has been a amazing journey for 8 of us...

hope we can still be as a team until...the end of our J2 years

JJ CHALLENGERS OF NTU-JC CHALLENGE 2005

U ROX!

Chinese new year

2005-02-11T05:48:00.000-08:00

ang paos....visiting relatives...quite a havoc this year... no lah....all i did was just sleep n sleep haha...i feel this year people r nt veri nice,,, purposely miss out some of us..n acting oblivious... Ntu jc challenge coming to a end.... hope we will win something...my greatest wish now.... i feel more free nw...nt realli bothered by him animore.... but valentine's dae is coming...we shall see then...

tryin to gain control over myself

2005-01-31T07:54:00.000-08:00

dunno wads wrong

is like so obvious i need help....

to break a bad habit of mind...

cant he c it....wth....

i have to take control nw

is like everything has always been in my hands all this while..since secondary skl...

is like u were e one who told me to handle my life since young...

n nw i ask for help...

u refuse to give it to me...

u were e one who place e control in my hands..

n nw u realised tt i have grown up without u realisin it...

cant u c it....

u cant have e control back...i will nv give it back...i on my own nw

its always have been..silly...

i will find a way on my own..as always no way i will come to u for help anymore...tt's it my final decision

Shopping

2005-01-22T05:29:00.000-08:00

i was shopping with mich and alfred today...

shopping for new year clothings...so happy got something

so nice to be out after so long...

really need air to breathe lah..

i found out todae that alfred is such a nice person...make a new fren todae...

mich also kept suaning both of us...

but aniwae i think we all enjoyed our day out...

shod do this more often....

but if there is time lah...

sick

2005-01-17T05:31:00.000-08:00

i was made to stay at home kept sleeping e whole dae.... in e morning, i was abt to step out of e house... was stopped by my dad... refused to let me out of the house... anyway...one day at home todae

upon losing my voice

2005-01-16T04:56:00.000-08:00

i think i have just lost my voice... its like when my ma tried to scold me... i dun have energy to quarrel back dun feel like toking.. we r goin to have a very quiet minty... peace n quiet...

sick

2005-01-14T06:43:00.000-08:00

i think i have overwork myself.... come on....two science competition in a row... lots of datelines...for reports n so many teachers breathin down my neck... haha this week, i was late for skl for e 1st time in my entire life... i panicked n cried... then slammed my finger on e door... got injured n horribly swollen... almost every teacher knew... n so many pple knew... now...i'm sick... someone pls help me... got some more tests next week... i hate spa... but situation is getting better nw though there is so much stress... i still love skl>.<

some days r just like that

2005-01-08T05:02:00.000-08:00

sometimes i wonder wat would be like to be just free of emotions....

it is so easy to get sad...

like the first day of skl...

e first day of class...

e first dae when u first noe tt special someone...

e first dae when u become firm friends....

The dae u realised something....tt somethings r impossible to achieve...

from 1st dae...comes e following

the bonds u make with ur frens...

the feelings n emotions u get

e experience u get...of feelings of special frens n people

Then comes the end....

the dae when we have our final year exams....

e support u have for each other....

n then....

comes graduation night...

where everyone separates to go on their own life journies...

but then u wod noe that they are still part of ur life's story...

n through this story u find even more things u wod treasure, regrets..

life it is a amazing journey one can find....

First day of skl

2005-01-03T01:55:00.000-08:00

Nervous, dunno wat to expect..... Beginning a new day as a J2.. quite nice be seniors of e skl..... but frightening too.... class started..lessons as usual somethings i dun understand... y cant some people be nice to others? i hate it.... y m i so nice to people when no one appreciates me....

y...

approaching to the end of 2004

2004-12-30T01:02:00.000-08:00

Reflecting upon this year, i have found out that i have changed somehow but how much..... curbing fears isnt really very easy, everydae its a new challenge to curb that fear in me.... somethings r so difficult to put in words...but actions say it all.... i know i shodnt think too much.........but i wanna noe more...

Christmas eve

2004-12-24T01:36:00.000-08:00

sometimes, i dun realli like christmas....

It makes me feel so lonely...its like everyone is in pairs or in their group of frens...

Even though i have my own group...the emptiness is still there...

Tt's y i always leave my group.....on tt dae...

it's like e feeling of being alone is so beautiful, but yet sad also

alone u feel urself..when everyone is busy with themselves...

u will noe urself better....but at the same time sinking into this deep hole of saddness that u can never escape at all....

Christmas...wishing u have someone special with u.... but again....christmas n a new year....

leads to a new beginning, a new start N also a new END to end with....

we n e com lab e whole dae again

2004-12-15T05:26:00.000-08:00

our life is soooooooooo boring...either researching, homewk or arguin over theories n tactics that's it...i'm nuts

hmmm...somethings to reflect

2004-12-14T02:55:00.000-08:00

sometimes i dunno whether m i happy or sad...

y r emotions funny things...to take it hard on urself or let urself go...

i wanna just lift my wings n fly into a safe arms where there is nothing at all to feel

if emotions can torture one, it can also satisfy one...

i wanna a place where there is a void...

it like...mint, let urself go...it will be much better....

emotions...makes one hold on so dearly...but y...

its like on a thin strand of string...once it snaps,it snaps...so hard to piece together again...

hmmm...scary isnt it?emotions control u entirely...

fear what is it? fear of what? fear of fear itself..the feeling of it...

e whole week

2004-12-11T06:02:00.000-08:00

sorri abt my not constant updatin, was far too busy.so nw i shall update u with e latest news. Here it goes... from mon to wed, was skl n more skl....had a tough time in doin e ntu challenge... with new problems everydae, tryin to find my role n keep up with e grp....haii, my life is soo boring... next... thurs-tried to play pool with sharon n her grp of frens..glimpse of life is nt easy to see n be accepted...everydae i learnt a new thing just to tell u, i cant play pool veri well, is like i play so many times but still pocket so many white balls n keep missin e target........ Fridae-as usual skl again, ntu thingy is realli takin up my time... something crazy in e mornin though... went to skl in mr leow's car with gabriel...everyone got a little shock when i came down(by e way, me n gabriel r neighbours) at night, caught a movie with e guys..watch e national treasure...it was realli good... saturdae-went out for cip...met a few unwanted pple.. kept disturbing me cant take it lor.. realli pissed me off..pls if u r nt doin for charity with ur heart..get out of my sight...all they do is for money n no morals...watever... after tt went with mao mao to safra todae...tryin to sell candles... saw e one there..dyed his hair red..omg... didnt tok at all, n stuck to gurls e whole time... i realli envy them with their life so enrichin..at least they can turn to something they like n all i'm stuck with is my books e whole life i see them so happy ,i feel alittle envious... probably i'm still searching for myself.. who noes..i will never find it at all....

y e world like that...

2004-12-05T05:40:00.000-08:00

Tot i will be happy but i'm not.. sometimes things n situations not in our control....

myabe i m to emotional....plz let everything pass....

Missing someone important

2004-12-04T06:09:00.000-08:00

ohhhhhhhhhhhh i just came back from ntu i tell ,its so tough there lor.... OMG....one of the talks was on forensic medicine...n e doctor show us pictures of corpses ohhh....y they nv prepare us before hand..scared me stiff,kept crying for like 1hr with all e other jc people around...learnt a bit though E professor was so nice to treat us dinner for two daes ... n e other jc pple were like so envious of us...hahahaaha but i enjoyed myself alot..learnt alot of stuff there.ITs damn cool.... i wanted e labcoats so badly...if onli i could have it oh labs r so nice,imagine keep working in it nonstop ok..its been 2 weeks i havent seen someone around..mao also... i down with missing pple syndrome , esp e moose n mao it's like so long before i saw them ahhh..so sick oredi.. i want skl to start...but if skl start i will fall even more sick

E dae before the NTU JC CHALLENGE

2004-11-28T06:27:00.000-08:00

hmmm.many things to pack ,cant seem to organise things ok people, little minty is goin for a short trip to ntu... wont be around... wonder how's mao n rach is doing....y they nv respond....wah...so upset but nv....i will be busy anywae, cant wait to see them again... oh ya just to report...i wish the person happy birthdae oredi.. yup.i make sure he recieved it...ov msn....

IMPORTANT FOR MAO N RACH

2004-11-26T05:39:00.000-08:00

mao and rach i'm here very lonely...... u better send me postcard or i go nuts

P.S:u better send ah...or nt i will really go crazy.i goin to email u my home address.......check ur email

wahhhhh......i miss u two

must send

i'm lonely

2004-11-25T08:09:00.000-08:00

Ahhh!Ntu jc challenge is around the corner....cant wait for it.... but now, i'm bored n lonely...... mao is gone......off to australia for two weeks.... hai....no one to complain to...if onli she was around oh bother.......someone's birthdae is ard the corner n i havent send the card yet...shod i give it personally anywae,its just a fren right? where's mao mao...............sad, lonely minty u have here.....

A day to think about

2004-11-15T07:22:00.000-08:00

Hmmmm, lessons learnt today.Never, never trust boys when they are trying to play a trick on you. So mean of them, make me cry in Burger King today where everyone is around eating away. I tell you, i cry like for 1.5 hrs. I was like sooooooooooooo upset u noe. Anger at myself on WHy i acted so stupidly. In the end they apologise and tried to make me happy again. No going onto the details on wat happened.It is tooo embarrassing. To KW n JON: I forgive you, but plz dun joke on this type of thing again.It hurts u noe...scared me for life(haha, as if). Oh ya, bought a new pair of earings,eyeing on it for a few months oredi.hmmm, on the bus home, i found out something very important but i feel very helpless, cant seem to do anything. well, that's life that moves at a pace which is very fast, cannt catch up though.People changed n situations keep happening.ok watever..... I feel frens r important.but plz i value honesty alot, so if anyone is unhappy with me plz tell me.thanx. time to sleep nw........

MEow

2004-11-14T05:49:00.000-08:00

i luv being a cat i luv my frens n finally i found my long lost fren YEah.......................................... No more words can express my feelings Dunno wad to do anymore i'm goin crazy i want school,iwant school I duncare just wanna go school......

feeling the blues

2004-11-10T05:58:00.000-08:00

i feeling really out of place these few days there's a reason, but not going to talk about it. haiya,these few days, everyone around me leep teasing me especially mr leow n the class. peace is up...yup, feeling very peaceful. but it doesnt feel so real. i have learnt to let go in some areas oredi, cant expect to much. Gonna c a psychologist soon, it is gonna be a tough journey.it is so scary, but c whether it opens another door to my life...

2004-11-07T07:06:00.000-08:00

Dare You To Move by Switchfoot

Welcome to the planet

Welcome to existence

Everyone's here

Everybody's watching you now

Everybody waits for you now

What happens next?

I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout

Welcome to resistance

The tension is here

Between who you are and who you could be

Between how it is and how it should be

I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened

Maybe redemption has stories to tell

Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell

Where can you run to escape from yourself?

Where you gonna go?

Salvation is here

I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself

Lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened

Today never happened before

Y like that....

2004-11-03T06:15:00.000-08:00

Y like that..... Thought that i wod be happy that pw is over for good. but it doesnt seem so.... i feel that nothing could make me happy though..... wonder wat wod truly make me smile frm my heart... Everyone has 2 faces, including me.... but no one lets it out..... i wanna be free forever but will always be bounded reminds me of a song in my convent daes....

Some birds live in cages, but never learn to fly

and like those birds i never found my wings

but lord your love release me

so i could see the sky

and now i'm soaring as i sing

Spirit wings

you take me up above of the earth bound things

and like a bird i'm soaring, soaring free

and of your all, your spirit wings

oh lord of all

you take me up

you lift me up, your majesty

i'm soaring free in your spirit wings

eh, i think tt's roughly the lyrics, can't really remember though >.<